Feelings

“Can two friends sleep together and still love each other in the morning.”

— When Harry met Sally

A few times in my life I’ve had moments of absolute clarity, when for a few brief seconds the silence drowns out the noise and I can feel rather than think, and things seem so sharp and the world seems so fresh. I can never make these moments last. I cling to them, but like everything, they fade. I have lived my life on these moments. They pull me back to the present, and I realize that everything is exactly the way it was meant to be.

Why is every single person out there obsessed with being skinny, model pretty, perfect hair, nails perfect, no acne, perfect tones skin, shopping the latest trends? No one is perfect! You have to believe this! No one is perfectly skinny, be the weight YOU are comfortable with, not other people’s opinions. Perfect hair? No one has that either, YOU are born with curly, straight, red, blonde, brown hair, GOD wanted you to look like that. Nails perfect? lol I think everyone hates their nails! No acne? That’s a joke, I used to have some-what bad acne and I freaked out every time I got a pimple, and cover it with makeup, but it only made it worse, Now? I just put a lil of acne cream and I don’t care if you see it or not, it’s a sign that I’m comfortable with what I was born with or developed. Perfect tan? Your born with your skin, embrace it. Latest trends? Dress in the style YOU like, not what the magazine says. Enjoy life, don’t go crazy on life, but take it step by step, relax, find an outlet, keep passion in it, and sit back, enjoy, don’t make drama, enjoy it. ♥

Relationships are harder now because conversations became texting, arguments became phone calls, feelings became subliminal messages online. Sex became easy, the word “love” gets used out of context, insecurities have become your way of thinking. Getting jealous became a habit, trust has been lost, cheating became an accident, leaving became the only option & being hurt became natural.

Relationships should not make you feel clingy, anxious and insecure. Yet, since that is all we know, we think this is normal and we call it love.

It isn’t just me. Everyone feels that same emotion. Looking for love, falling in love, being dumped, getting hurt. Every ounce of happiness and every drop of pain, I can feel in those words. And I realized, the people here are not just tough. They’re fighters, survivor. And truly, they are the ones who could love the most.

The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they’re out in the open. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don’t have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you’re in control, you’re not.

Some of us pursue perfection and virtue and if we’re lucky we catch up to it, but happiness cannot be pursued. It either comes to you or it don’t. You can always say “if only this or that,” but ‘if only’ is a state of mind that we get into when we feel deprived.

I will not let anyone walk through my mind with their dirty feet.